Poems

"Kaibigan"

Naglalakad mag-isa, nag-iisip-isip
Hanggang makita kita at masulyapan mo ako
Nagkatinginan at nagkangitian
At nilagpasan ang isa't isa.

Bakit ganon?
Isang sulyap mo lang nakaramdam na agad ako ng saya.
Isang ngiti mo lang tila ako'y nakalutang na sa langit.
Nakakabighani ang buo mong pagkatao.

At ito na nga
Nakaka-usap, nakakabiruan, at nakakalaro na kita.
Hindi ko akalain na makakasama pa kita sa mga lakaran.
Kakaibang saya ang naidulot mo sa'kin na parang ayaw kong matapos pa.

Ang dati kong mababaw na pagtingin ay lumalim
At mas lumalim at pinalalim pa.
Pati sa aking panaginip ay ayaw kang pakawalan.
Iba na to.

Pero dapat hanggang maaga ay mapigilan ko ang aking sarili
Dahil alam kong may minamahal ka ngayon.
May nagpapasaya at nagpapatawa sayo.
Ililihim ko na lang talaga lahat ng meron ako sayo
Wala naman kasing mangyayari kung sasabihin ko pa.

Magkaibigan tayo. Magkaibigan lang tayo.
Kaya ipagwawalang-bahala ko na lang ito
Hindi ko sasabihin, dahil pag inamin ko
alam kong lalayo ka.
"Ang kalapitan mo ang magpapasaya sa aking mundo."
12/26/15


"Dulo"

Sa loob ng maikli at madaling panahon

Nakagawa tayo ng maraming ala-ala.

Mga ala-alang kay sarap dalhin kahit gaano ka na kalayo.

Ngunit ito pa lang mga masasayang ala-ala'y magdadala rin ng pasakit.

Tila narating na natin ang dulo.

Dulo kung saan ang tawag ng nakararami ay wakas.

Dulo kung saan natatapos ang lahat.

Dulo kung saan pareho tayong sugatan,

Pareho tayong durog, umiiyak at wasak.

Nasa isang tabi ka lang nakatulala. Walang imik.

Ang tangi lang kasama ay ang mga luha galing sa malamyang mga mata.

Ni hindi nakita na kumislap ang mga ito mula ng narating natin ang dulo.

Mahirap, mahirap tanggapin na tapos na.

Tapos na tayo. Wala na tayong dalawa.

Wala akong magawa ng matapos ang lahat.

Masakit ngunit kailangang tanggapin na ika'y hindi na akin.

Hindi ko kayang limutin kita.

Pero kung ipagpipilitan ko pa ang lahat sa atin ay sa huli ako pa rin ang talo.

Iniisip kong hindi na kita mahal.

Pero ang sinisigaw nitong hangal kong puso ay

"Mahal pa rin kita."
12/23/15

Music and Me

One of the favorite things that I do here on earth is singing. Never on my entire day that I did not sing, or just listen to music. I really love music because I can expressed myself through it.

One of the artist that inspires me is Sarah Geronimo. She made a great impact to my life through her music. Plus, her pleasing personality and being a good role model to the young generations.

One more, I'm praying everyday that I would have a keyboard or a piano because I really wanted to play it ever since. Actually, I already have it before, but my cousin's nephew accidentally pushed my organ and it broke.So sad.

High School Friendship

In my first year of high school, I couldn't imagine myself being around with anybody. I'd rather be alone than to talk with people, because I always caught myself as the center of attention, and I do not want to be like that. My friends always teasing me and make fun of me. I hate it and it hurts me.

So to avoid conflicts, I isolated myself far away from them.

It's not that literally walking away, but I gave myself some distance.

They can talk to me, and asked whatever they want, and it's just ends with it.

I'm not joining them wherever they go.

But when I'm in second until fourth year of high school, I became one of the most talkative student in our room. I found myself laughing along with my classmates because they are not like my classmates in 1st year high school. They are simple, not looking on the outside of a person, and they just lived with joy, laughter, love, and happiness. Enjoying each day with not forgetting their responsibilities as a students.

But where not totally kind during those days, we have our flaws and weaknesses as a student. As the world is full of temptations, we do a lot of sins and mistakes but we always did our best to do the right things.

And then time has passed, I'm on the 2nd year level of college now.
I couldn't imagine that I would find crazy and funny people at World Citi College where I'm studying now.
Here they are. :)

All I can say is I'm very blessed to have them as my friend. :)
Through them, I experienced so many things and 60% of my first time moments are because of them!
#PsychBabies
#RoyalBlood

Family

You could see above the picture of my family. We are six siblings in the family, four girls and two boys. My oldest brother wasn't there at the photo.

"You don't choose your family. They are God's gift to you, as you are to them." - Desmond Tutu

For me, there is no perfect family. All family has its flaws, everyone has problem to solve, and trials to overcome. Members of the family maybe arguing but we can't stop loving each other just because we don't agree with them. There are things that we cannot agreed, and pride would rise, but at the end of the day we are still with each each others' side.

I considered my family as a blessing to me. simply because whatever I have done, whenever I have mistakes, or to my weaknesses, they always forgive and accept me as I am. We're always fighting but I know, we continue to love each other. 

Therefore, I thank the Lord for giving me my own family! I am blessed. :)

You could see below different photos with my family and relatives.

Blessed Family!

Hiding Inside

Smiling face. My Family, relatives, closest friends, and even peers always teasing me because whenever they see me, I'm always smiling. Actually I'm doing this because I don't want to affect people that surrounds me, I do not want to give burdens in their heart.                                                   

Smiling is one of the things that I always wanted to do whenever I have a problem, in time of trials, And when I'm struggling. I Smile, for so many things I have to be thankful for. I believe that doing it could get me out in stress, and I could think better.                           

But there is one case, I'm just smiling and laughing so I won't be able to cry in front of them. I hide my true feelings for the sake of people who really loves me. I didn't want to get them hurt too because I love them so much. Sometimes, I just wanted to run, and run all over again until I have realize what would I do to express my true feelings.